moving forward in life

Bonnie, I’ve done all the clearings on PTSD, Betrayal, being a Victim, Addicted to suffering, waiting for the other shoe to drop, etc. When I found out my husband had be cheating on me for 7 years of our 10 year marriage with anyone who would smile at him I’ve gone bat shit crazy. I’m afraid of everything. I can’t clear it. I don’t know if it entities, demons, contracts. I’m afraid of me. I’m afraid of letting it all go. What is it that’s stopping me from letting it go?